Recently I was given some advice about writing.
Advice that really spoke to me and immediately had me feeling like I needed to give the ‘method’ a try.
I figured it would help me become a better writer. That my message would be heard and understood more effectively.
But then I got to thinking…
I write but I am not a writer.
I talk but I am not a speaker.
I counsel but I am not a counsellor.
Am I all of these things or none of them?
Then I saw the image above and it seemed so fitting…
I am an AUTHOR and not just any Author, the Author of MY life.
I write, I talk, I counsel and I am constantly learning…
I am passionate about my work and helping others and be damned if I am going to follow anything other than my heart and intuition when it comes to this life gig and WHO, not WHAT I am.
Courage
In today’s fast paced world, it is all too easy to get caught up in how others are doing things.
Just yesterday, I woke up like every other day, full of energy, ready to take on the world and yet as I opened my screen and started my work day, a feeling of overwhelm slowly crept in.
It didn’t hit me like a sudden storm, more like something I could see brewing in the distance, that may or may not, come my way.
You know those times where you feel like you have SO much to do, you couldn’t possibly take a break?
That is EXACTLY when taking a break is ESSENTIAL, because it means that you have lost your balance and said YES too many times or allowed many little seemingly important things, to creep in and take over the really important things.
OR
You are staying so busy, to avoid DEALING, even when you think DEALING is exactly what you have been doing.
I suspect I have been doing this for far too long and rather than sit with the open wound and take the time to really THINK about what is required to heal, I whack a bandaid over it and keep going, until it opens up again.
So what did I do? I took myself down to the beach and threw myself in the sea…
No phone, no podcasts, no updates, no music, no taking notes, no instagram…
Just me and the sea, coming to a deal, to CONNECT to what really matters.
Sometimes, we are connected to SO many things, things we believe are important and necessary, that we are in grave danger of disconnecting from the main, most important line….our LIFE line.
Yesterday I started the search for what TRULY matters to me.
No more band aids, no more rushing, ’thinking’ I am dealing and healing.
I have come to realise I am too caught up in seeking reassurance or acceptance from OUTSIDE when it comes to my life and choices, that I apply rules to my life about what I could or should do.
And when I do this, I feel like I am in prison.
When I think I have to do things a certain way to please others, I know I am dangerously close to losing my balance.
Like writing a certain way for example…
SCREW IT.
I write from my heart and I suspect the minute it comes from my head is the minute I lose my mojo.
When I read these words by Rumi, I suddenly felt a release….
“Be empty of worrying. Think of who created thought!Why do you stay in prison when the door is so wide open?”
It is when we let go of the way things were MEANT or WERE GOING to be, along with our fear of how OUR choices will affect others, our heart starts to speak louder than our head.
At first it is scary, so we turn up the volume in our heads, trying desperately to drown out our hearts…
BUT our heart, she is clever.
She doesn’t need to use words and she will make you sick, if that’s what it takes to get your attention.
And once she has it, she starts whispering again, in the quiet moments and if we listen, really listen, then how we see ourselves and others, is forever changed!
So I am an Author and I am writing in pen.
This is not unfortunate, as the image above states.
I wouldn’t have it any other way. Our mistakes are not meant to be erased, they are meant to be recorded in our hearts to gently remind us when we are not holding our own pens.
And THAT is the TRUTH….
Write on!
Stace x
